It is funny how you beat your chest in boldness, beaming with pride and courage in front of everyone. You tell the people present, including yourself, that you will do what needs to be done when the time comes.
It is remarkable how when the time comes to make good your promise, you develop a sinking feeling. You are left with a dry mouth and a pounding heart. Dread comes over you like a cloud of bees, stinging you until you become dizzy with fear and panic, until you turn your back and flee.
When People Are Big and God Is Small, Overcoming Peer Pressure, Codependency, and the Fear of Man Resources for Changing Lives: Edward T. Welch: Books